Allard Jan Duinker (Allie) b.1958-d.2008)

How do I start when there is so much about you

What was really going on in your head we all don’t have a clue

Always been my favourite uncle and a close friend

It breaks my heart that you chose for your life to end

I know we must have shared many lives together

And I believe that our souls won’t leave each other

I’ll think of you when I look in the sky to see the weather

And your wisdom and lessons in life I’ll cherish forever

Maybe you think we didn’t listen to what you had to say

But that’s not true; We just all listen in a different way

People thinking you’re crazy was your biggest fear

But I think you’re brilliant so don’t you worry my dear

You loved to party and to travel around the earth

You brought mom and dad together in Taiwan that lead to my birth

We could scream and hurt each other and be so mad

But you always helped and talked to me when I was feeling sad

And lately you where crying for help on the phone

Now I can’t stop crying when thinking you were alone

Last time I saw you we listened to Justin Timberlake: Losing My Way

It described your life and feelings; Somehow I knew you where going away

In a way it’s comforting to know you’re in grandma’s care again

That thought dries my tears because finally you must be a happy man

After all the ups and downs in the family I want you to know

You’re forever in our hearts and we are going to miss you so

‘Love is ‘All’ and ‘All’ is Love’ is what you thought and expected

We’ll make sure for you that this vision is honoured and respected

You told me I was a princess; Doornroosje is what you called me

I’ll continue to make you the proudest uncle there can be

Your believe in me pushed me again and again

And I’m so proud to have you as my biggest fan

Had many dreams, ideas, visions and stories to tell

Thought living a life with oblivious people is worse then hell

Biggest problem was to transfer thoughts into actions

What you expected from us was a different reaction

You’re a sweet, intelligent, good and beautiful soul

It’s so sad that you couldn’t get your emotions under control

Now you chose to fly away to the other dimension

Gave up on trying to get your discoveries under the attention

Why did you walk with monsters who destroyed your head and heart

Believing in lying blood sucking devils even though you where smart

After all those years I hope that it’s peace you found

And for that bad peace of SHIT Freek Helman:

What goes around comes around 

Thanks for the times you helped me out

You probably know what I’m talking about

I hope you’ll visit me sometimes to guide me through

I miss you already and I will always do

I want you to know that I truly love you

Doornroosje

A man from Hell

The first time in life I’ve learned how to hate

Time after time my uncle’s good heart broken by a supposable mate

He always told me there should only be love and respect

But the last time he was scammed it had a fatal effect

Can’t stop crying and I’m so sad; I lost Allard and never felt so bad

Now I’m furious; Never been this mad

A low unconscious asshole that has ruined more then one life

The pain you caused to my loved ones cuts like a knife

Until now he got away with lies

Leaving people alone with crying eyes

But if you mess with my family you’re messing with me

Now you better hide because I’m your worse enemy

You stole every cent my uncle had to spend

All that time pretending to be his friend

And when you had al his money you didn’t return his calls

My uncle trapped in a cold attic between four walls

Begging you to come and talk to him was all he asked you dick

But you used your familiar excuse: A family member is terribly sick

I pray that you’ll have sleepless nights till your end of day

Enough spirits won’t rest till you’re gone so they will stay

You stole away my flesh and blood

One day it will be your blood that will flood

When that day comes I’m not the only one that will laugh

I wish for that day to be soon with everything I have

Cheater, liar, pig, scumbag a man with no soul no remorse

Now I feel shattered but you will feel worse

I’ll get over this with my feet firmly on the ground

My favourite saying will be a fact: What goes around comes around

I hate you with every cell in my body; You’re bad and lower then low

From now on down hill and down to hell you go

Playing and ripping of good people is your game

A parasite with no remorse and no shame

When you rot in hell you only have yourself to blame

How ironic that Freek Helman is your name

Dorien Rose Duinker