My darling daughter, its now 2015 and I always will be in mourning for your death. I miss you so very much and still feels like yesterday. All your brothers and sisters miss you so much. I cant have your photos up yet,,I bawl looking at you,,remembering you as a little girl. How you crawled out the window,,yu were a absoulute joy in my life. I so miss you hearing yur voice. Somedays its still so hard,,,always will be as a mom. Your death has made it hard on all yur sisters and brothers,,,no one talks anymore. I pray for all your sisters and brothers to come together. Remember pulling Christophers boxers, lol. You could of been a brat but such a joy as a daughter and sister. I thank you God for this wonderful daughter you gave to me and I will see yu someday. I know you forgive what has happened Chris,,,mommy loves you so dearly..SPECIAL GIRL YOU ARE.

Chrissy, First of all I just want you to know how much I miss you.. I never stop thinking about you with each day that passes by. I wish you were here Maybe you could bring our family back together like it use to be :( its all I want, mom and all our brothers and sisters to be together again. It will never change the fact that I love mom so much and love my brothers and sisters even if they don't know, I know that you do and that you always had it in your heart to forgive and accept, no matter who we are and what happens. I live on every day trying to be a better person and have a heart the way yours was, I love you and will never stop loving you chris , I just want the whole world to know your heart Love your sister, missy

Hi Christina. You never knew about me but I would like to write here for you and your family. It is really sad what happened that night. When I read these comments from your family I see the pain in their hearts. This pain and sadness can not be described in words. You have left your family at such a young age of 20. I hope RCMP finds everyone who did this to you. Even though I am not from Canada I would like to visit your grave one day. May God give peace to your family.

The summer is here once again Chris and one more year passes,knowing your not here. |I dont know where the time has gone feeling like its still the same horrible day,,,its like repitition and the repeat of it all over again everyday. I miss and love you so very much and always think about you,,Im so happy you becasme a christian,,,mommy was proud of you that day so much,,,you gave yourself to God so proudly and happy. My tears never end,but my joy for you knowing that you are with our Lord. You were and are a special person that touched all of us and more on earth,,,,I cant belive Chris,my baby,your not here,,,I cant say your gone,,,,I always feel like your going to come home and say mommmmmmy,,,please make some pumkin pie,,,your sillyness,,,your smiles ,your heart was like a shining star that LIT the whole word,,,I will see you again my wonderful daughter,,youll be the one who meets me,,,,youll be guiding me back home with your heart and love. MOMMY LOVES YOU SO VERY MUCH,I MISS YOU WITH EVERY BREATH I TAKE......MOMMY

The days are always hard with you gone my sweet daughter.I wish you were here Christina,,,,Jodie has a baby now,,TYler is going to have a baby soon.Everyone moves on except the mother. I wonder what you would be doing now if you were here,,,making the world smile. Your truley were a gift to me,,,,I just wish I had more time with you . The things Id say Chrissy,,,,the whole family loved you so much and do. I know its not the same,,,there is s space in my heart that is missing. I want you to know you were wonderful daughter. I go to the grave and stand there like I can still see you in your coffin. How I miss you and you shouldnt of died. Its so unfair.

Theres not one minute that i dont think of you,You are painfully missed sis. <3 love you so much, See you again someday <3

Christina, A spring without you, a summer to follow and on and on.....I wished this were over and you had just moved away and decided you were coming back, The excitement and Joy I would feel I would probably have a heart attack..LoL. Its funny how we take people for granted and the ones we love the most disappear while the ones who are undeserving are here with us who don't deserve a kind word, a big hug, or life for that matter. I wished I could trade your life for someone else as the all the people who did this to you shouldn't be here and I hope they have terrible lives with sad dreams making sure they wake up every morning knowing what they did to you and knowing they should not be here. Chris; you and I chatted lots before you passed and there were people who you did not want in your life as they dragged you down and the amount of sadness / problems they brought around you I agree you were better off. Its to bad you and I didn't move before this happened as we planned. With everything aside Chris are and always be more important then most everyone here and I consider it to be a punishment that these people have to be here living with what they have done everyday of their pathetic lives, and you are the lucky one as you don't have to ever deal with hurt and pain ever again. I tell you this Chris I will make things right and I am going to make changes like I should have done while you were alive, things are going to be different and I will try to be everything you would expect me to be...You will never go unnoticed and you will never be forgotten as you will be with me till the day I see you again as I will be one of the lucky ones who gets to see you again...This I know. Love you more than Everything here! One Day Christina....Cant Wait ya Goof!

Beverly Hadland

15 years ago

Hi Cindy I grieve for you and pray that you experience the peace that passes all understanding. May God comfort you and your children. You are all in my prayers.

Your daughter is beautiful and I am so sorry of your loss.I know your pain I lost my beautiful 23 year old daughter March of 2006. For more support please visit www.mychildlossgrief.org

when we used to not talk for a few days .....i remeber always woundering if u were mad at me, or what u were doing, where u were, who i could call to see if u (the wild child) were crashed at someones house that night. man did i always worry about u , you were like my family. and the days didnt seem right without you and your smiles and stories and jokes to tell to make the days less dull. now i sit here thinking that u never will call me its so depressing...its summer we always hung out everyday in the summer having fun just chillin, drinking a beer, walking, or having fires in martys back yard. lol! it seems like this is all still a dream and im lost in it. i wish i could call u up and just talk i miss that so much.i miss my best friend...im so lost without u . i thought as time passed it would be easier but its just more of this nightmare. its hard to be positive when ur life is falling apart and i iknow if u were here u would have some silly thing to say to make me feel better right now but ur not here and thats almost unbearable i dont understand y this all happpened and im so angry at the world those people....its like no one gives a shit u died the way u did so tragic, and those ppl feel no pain no regrets? its fucked! they are fucked. they took ur innocence away so they could be cowards and live their coward life. i hate the fact that to all who loved her and who christine loved back are left here with emptyness of not knowing what happened to her and they are guilt free!! but enough about them... i went to ur grave site a few times thought it would help but it doesnt i just miss u so bad! and my heart pains for this to be a dream. i wish we could go back to the days when i lived in stoney plain and we used to walk the dog down all the trails we would buy a 6 pack and just walk for a few hours, i remeber u scrached marty so hard he had nail marks all the way down his arms i think he still has a scar.lol poor bugger u were so mean to him lol but we all knew bu loved him deep down he was one of us. haha marty ur one of the girls. you just gave out the tough love is all but everyone who loved u knew ur gentle lovein side was the one that took over. you just had a rough exterior is all, and i loved that about u, u wanted to help everyone and be their friend but u also never put up with stupid ppls shit .lol i remeber ur laugh and ur sillyness ur need to get what u wanted and ur zest for life......always so full of hope. and all the love u tried to give out unconditionally. you only wanted to be loved back and i remeber u crying to me how sad and hurt u were at times about fights with girlfriends or family and i would try to tell u everything would be okay u never belived me but im glad u still choose to talk to me it was hard to try and figure out what u were thinking or how u were feelin u never were much of a talker about those things.wish we were closer in the end when u moved away wish i knew more about ur new life ur friends were u lived and stuff wish we would have been close so i could know how u felt when u moved like before when we hung out everyday. i wish i dint move to rainbow lake i know that hurt u and u missed me alot when i left for almost 2 years. i remeber how u hated rob cuz he moved me away and all u said about him was true...lol and how much fun we had when i got back to ed from grande prarie and when u me and marc went there to get the rest of my stuff and i was so happy to have ur support and how ur face gleemed that big smile cuz u knew he hated u and u didnt care it was like u were saying ha ha i get to take ur gf now and we get to party again and have fun like the old days...(what i would do to go back to those days) lol ! it was great all the good times we had and even the bad. u tried to forget and forgive for the things that ppl did to u and that amazed me. u amazed me as a person...someone so selfless, so happy and full of life! miss u tons and love u deerly

you r always fun and u always want everyone to injoyallyssa shaylene mom jodie grandma and the family miss you and you always wanted everyone to laugh and have fun u couldnt let anyone not have any one have fun and everyone wished they could save you but they cant and you will always be in a better place and i will always love you and i always injoy when you jump on the couches and sing your favourite song and i injoy seeing you love aleaha

It broke my heart Chris when I heard you had passed but it when I found out the people who did this to you dot off I felt sick to my stomach. You gave people the benefit of the doubt and even if someone wronged you...You still gave another chance knowing that there was a possibility for change. I wished I wished I were half the greatness you were, I shared a bond with you that cannot be replicated, I shared the greatest love for you and I grieve the deepest pain. I didnt have bad days around you, I remember at Christmas last year I was kind of bummed and you made a joke and I laughed and turned my head, when I turned back to look at you bug you, you were making finny faces..You were such a goof, I would like to think you got some of that from me. You made things worth fighting for, and you made me feel that life was worth living with all of its ups and downs. I know you are with me, with all the strange things that happen I know its you. I hope every night that I dream of you and I watch Sylvia Browne in hopes that maybe you will send me a message, I still don't believe your gone yet,sounds weird but I still hope I will hear another one of your goofy voice mails or you will make fun of me on facebook...lol. You saved me Chris and for that I thank you, You have always been my angel in discuise and now you really are. I know that when time comes we will meet up and carry off with the goofiness that we enjoyed so much in life...lol, Cant wait. Love you so much Chris..R.I.P, No One will ever take your Place!!

It has been a sad New year without you Chris. I dont know what happened and so much and so much has been said but what really happened to you and no matter what you didnt deserve this.I was alway so worried about you. I staill have a hard time believeing that you are gone and wont be phoning me anymore or anything. My little sis i miss you and feel so bad for you. I hope more than anything that you never suffered at all. I go by your graveyard and where you were found all the time and it is so upsetting . I cant even listen to music with out relating it to you somhow. I wish i could have protected you like i have always tryed to protect you all. Im sorry i couldnt have been there to helo you Chris.. I hope that you are in a good place and at peace. I know that now you are safe where you are and dont have to worry about any of the life stresses that are here everyday. Now i guess you will be looking over all of us now. A weird thought that is considering i am so much older than you and it shouldnt have been this way. Love you lots

Wow, its crazy to think a whole year will go by and another after that and you wont be here. I am sad and lost without you, I remember the one Christmas you lived with us and you were so much fun, you and I were always the clowns...Lmao, I thought buying you all of these things would show you I loved you more than I could tell you, although you and I said it every time we saw each other I thought I could try harder. You were not a material person and all you cared about was the people around you, I knew just by the look in your eyes that you loved me...lol I remember you got teary eyed that one time, it was so cute, hey don't feel bad when I got on the plane to go home I balled like a baby the whole way, thought I was deserting you and Bridget. You had the exterior of someone who was strong but deep down you were so sweet Chris, all the night we laughed about things and made fun of Bridget and April (Shhh) I cannot pick out the memory that stuck out way more than the other because truth be told you made every time fun as hell and you broke my heart every time you left, you were beautiful and Charismatic, intelligent, wity, and sweet, I will not share these awesome traits in person but I will look to pictures, videos, stories and my dreams Chris...Love you

christina you were awesome to us and we really miss you. you were the best aunty ever

i remember you pigging on the cabbage rolls sneaking at night to have some.i remember the last time i saw you before you died(a month before)you were baby sitting us at aprils house we played at the park and you gave me your cell phone so i could see what time it was when you were talking to...(dont know)and you bought us some drinks(jjuice and stuff)and we were jumping off everything that was fun but i never got to say good bye to you i was feeling sick i was sleeping that was the last i saw you.i never wanted to let her go.:love shaylene i remember when the last time i saw you to.it was a couple of weeks before you died.i remember when you took me and jonas out in the city to hang out and got us some ice cream and i was asking to have pokemon cards .lol.well i miss you love allyssa

Merry Christmas Chris, Remember last year staying up all night pigging out on cabbage rolls, I always thought I was the only one with that sick addiction but you were the only one to eat them till you were almost sick (LoL) I said I would eat your portion whether I get stretch marks or not, and let me tell you I have the most gut ache i have ever had and I puked so I'm not sure if it is the 15 Pds I promised you...But come on Chris all the other stuff makes up. I was very sad leaving you last Christmas and getting on that plane, I thought to myself if i can just get in the vehicle away fro you than I wouldn't tear up, as soon as i sat down I cried (Most of the ride) lol although I looked stupid I didnt want to leave you or Bridget. I never realized that the feeling i got then could be x's by a 100, my heart breaks everyday I cant be with you, I tried bargaining for you for the first 2 days, i would have given myself up for you Chris. I realize that it was your time but it doesnt change the fact that we would rather you here with us, I bet you are bugging someone right now, I bet you and Terena are plotting against someone and Maryann is giving you crap...LoL, I know they are walking along side with you, Someday I will jump on your back again for a ride...LoL.......Love you too much Baby Sis

Merry Christmas X-Tina

Not only were you my sister , but my best friend. We have shared so much and you have shown me so much. You have left a part of you with me and taken a part of me with you...we will be together again! Your my angel and your in my heart. Life without you is not the same. I miss your laugh, your smile, you driving next to me, and watching movie after movie....eating until we can't move, playing dice for 7 hours. You truly are one of a kind! Thank you Chrissy for being such a great sister and friend. I miss you and love you. Your in my heart and thoughts every minute of every day....

I babysat a you and you were so much fun!I asked you when I babysat what we should call the cat we just got,{you were 3 then}you said"Aunty Sherry,that cat is a Spazz"she was right,so we called her Spazzed out!It makes me sad that your mother took you away from us as a punisment each time she got mad.. But I know in my heart, I will see you again,You are in Jesuses arms now,smiling at us,sending us your Love ,in dreams,thoughts, and little coinsidences. I love you and Aunty is with all your brothers and sisters now.. and I shall take could care of them and "Love them all always". So sleep well.... Chrissytina!

I know I write a lot about you Chris but I can't believe your not with us anymore. I look at your pictures and wish for one more day with you, although i dream about you all the time I am so sad Your not with me. Im going to gain 15 pounds for Christmas eating your share too, you were the only one to keep up with me. You were so special to me and I am mad at myself that I wasn't there for you more often, I wonder did you ever question how much I cared about you because you the most important thing in my life. I know you are in a better place now, you won't hurt anymore and no one will harm you there but the pain we are left with missing you is so great Chris. I hope you know that I live with regrets everyday and I know you knew how much I love you but was there more I could have done, could I tell you i loved you more...I dont know but I thought and worried about you everyday and it was hard for me to not hover over you all the time, I know Im just your big sister I was never your mom but I sure felt like it, someday we will meet again and I will be with you everyday just like I wanted here. (Don't start running..LoL)

I'm gonna miss you Chrissy, wish I was there for you more, which will always be my biggest regret in life now that your gone. I also wish I could have told you I thought of you like a little sister. Please save a seat for me in Heaven where we can sit and have a few beers.

i remember christina always being fun loveing and careing she was a great girl and had a lot of patentional

i'll never forget all the times we've spent at glennifer lake drinking beers and hangin out having a goodtime. and trying to get you to go swimming & picnic table surfing! but you were scared the 5ft purhanas were going to get you! your positive outlook on life inspires me to always keep my head up even when times get tough:)im glad i got to share the few years and great memories that i did with you, Your one of a kind Christina. R.I.P

Marty reminded me of a time that I saw them on the bus and X-Tina had fallen earlier in the night (due to some good times, good friends, and good booze). She had hurt her ankle, so I piggy-backed her home. X, I would have gladly carried you across land and sea, and then some. You ARE the little sister I never had, and I'm glad to have known you. I know you've left this place for one much better. R.I.P girl.

You always looked out for your friends, especially my daughter Jen. I never saw you angry in all the years I knew you. You stayed at my house alot and were considered part of the family. You taught Emily and Zak how to kick ass in tony hawk. You and Jen snuck out and went to Banff, you guys were happy in the pics. Jen misses you so much and so do I. I wont rest until I find out what happened to you little one. I'm glad we talked the last time I saw you downtown at my apartment. I wish I could have 5 more minutes to talk to you and I know anyone that knew you feels the same way. R.I.P Christine

Before I moved to Victoria, I had a few occasions where I got to spend time with Christina because April is my extended family. I watched Christina with our shared nephews, and niece - boy she had a way with the children. They loved her and you could see it when she was around them that she loved them back unconditionaly. I remember thinking that when I was a teenager I wanted nothing to do with babies, and here is Christina loving every moment of it. We talked about our families and how each of them could put the fun in disfunctional. lol - I think my family had hers beat handsdown. We laughed at the things we shared and just knew that everything experienced was a life lesson. She still laughed and at the end of it thats what is important. Christina never seemed to be upset about the cards on the table, she played the hand and was a winner. I am thankful that I got to share moments with her and I'm sorry that there will not be anymore here but perhaps we might cross paths in that better place and she can flash me that big smile of hers. My love and thoughts go out to all of you Haynes family and close friends who had the pleasure to really know and love Christina. Please try and stay positive and carry her in your hearts.

You were such a turd from the day you were bron. Always sneaking out of the doors ,windows or anywhere . What toddler figures out every kind of lock and window and sneaks out to feed the Teachers cats and play in there garden. You were always way to smart and we could never keep you still for one minute except with the life size doll of mine that scared you from sneaking out LOL You loved waking me in the night for firewood to have fires at your friends or to get me to pick you up. You even made me freeze to death once cause you took my gloves when you went out and then called me to come get you and my car broke down so i froze..If it werent for you i would never have met Ken. i was totally set on never having another man in my life but you helped to bring me happiness or to drive me nuts worrying about you my crazy little sister.. As i have told others you would have given the shirt off your back or you would have given them your older sisters shirts litterally LOL We all had our good and bad times but we all loved each other and made it through somehow. I still find it hard to believe that this is even real and that im not dreaming. But anyway you are loved by so many and you have touched many peoples lives. I think your soul purpose was to help bring happiness to others who needed this so much in there troubled times. I love you little sis and im gonna miss you lots.

I remember you would come tapping on my window in the middle of the night, we would talk forever, sometimes you would leave little notes there telling me to have a good day and such. Ha Ha i remember this one time and i don't know for what reason but you didn't have a place to stay so i snuck you in and you slept under my bed... you didn't have to but you insisted.. ill never forget you.

You came into this world a Beautiful, smiley Baby, So Beautiful I pretended you were mine. You had Big Piercing, Blue eyes, Sun kissed hair (I'm still jealous) And of course your big smile, even when you would cry you would still smile. I remember you being a toddler and sneaking out of the house to pick food out of my teacher's garden so you could feed her cats, You had a big heart right from the beginning. You had a lot of Character & Personality Chris, I loved the sweet side of you and had fun with the adventurous side of you. Words can't describe the pain I feel knowing that the My Baby Sister will not be with me to walk through the Good times, the Bad times and the Fun times. I cherish the great memories I have had with you and I will never let you go Chris, You will be with me forever and one day we will Pick up where we left off. We will together continue the path in which we started for which tragically was taken from you. I'm so sorry Chris, I love you like crazy.

I only met her for a brief time when she worked at Skyway this summer. I will always remember her positive outlook, and her friendly smile. She ALWAYS said hello with a smile on her face. One night she even joined me and some friends of mine at a pub and WOW DID THAT GIRL HAVE ENERGY. She danced up a storm! We could all learn a lesson from her about enjoying each moment that is given to us. I am very sad to hear that she is no longer with us. My thoughts go out to her family/friends.

Im going too miss you dizzy

i have so many wounderful memories....like remeber when u lived with me at my northside house.... i got really drunk we tried to move my bed downstairs and i fell in a box of knifes and cut my finger open it was bleeding and squirting and i dint give a shit i actually ate chinesse food you thought i was crazy u giggled and tried to help me. me being the stubborn ass i was didnt think i needed any stiches. we passed out and i woke up with a pool of blood under my hand my finger was swollen and my ring stuck. you cleaned all the blood up even on the roof in the kitchen... i remeber i didnt want my mom to know for some stupid reason. u told my dad and he took me to the hospital u waited for hours with me and held my hand. i love u... you were the least selfish person i knew im sorry that it took u being gone to realize how good of a friend u were and all the things i cherish. i miss u so much i feel like this is a horrible nightmare and i just cant wake up no matter how hard i try. hugs and kisses bopping bee love shortybee xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

I knew you for a long time, and i will always think of you. You were once a great friend, and always will be. Wish we had many more memories to have together, but i guess your time has come. Love you girly...rest in paradise

The laughs, The drinks, The Tears, The Smiles and many other unforgotten memories we have shared. You were always in high spirits and lived life to the fullest. May you Rest In Peace. Forever Missed and Never forgotten. My thoughts and prayers go out to the Haynes family

Chrstina had a way of always making people smile. I loved that about her.

Wow... I am really sorry. I wish you were still here. I'm soo sorry.