And things dont get any easier , we have had to deal with alot , your birthday ,mothers day and the big ruby anniversary with the big one still to come, and it is going to all hit us very hard ,i cant bear even thinking about it ,cant believe its 6 mths on thurs ,cant even describe the pain that i am feeling ,i still cry ,dont think i will ever stop ,you are in my head all the time , the same as all the family , my dad is missing you terrible dosent say much but you can see it , go to him in some way if you can, he is wondering were you are ,you were his soulmate, he is lost without you ,he needs this ,something to give him hope that you are still out there watching over us all ,and there is some life after death ,still cant get into my head that you are gone ,miss you so much ,it hurts a lot but you go on, day by day because you have to and it dosent matter where we are ,or what were are all doing, we all still carry the pain inside with us, it will never leave ,hope you liked the plastic red roses, think they look great , going to get another plaque made just the small one, but with big words that will say it all from the heart ,how we all feel ,that descibes what happens ,how he called you from us ,it would bring a tear to your eyes ,but down to a tee . as you probably know we all have the same braceletts ,from the johnpaul centre ,vincent got us them , just feel closer in some way knowing you had one on like that ,although it was vincents ,its as if we are all joined together in some way and thats a wee bit settleing in a way , for me anyway ,and we wear them all the time , think we will always ,we would have probably been booked up by now for the canaries, that was next on the list , its like a sore and wont go away ,you were a great person ,always thought of others , you would have your iceland and farmfood books going on just now ,wont get over this, dont think you ever do ,but what daniel did ,opening this website ,i give him credit for that ,100 percent , brillant ,miss u loads mum ,goodnight and god bless us all XXX.

It was tyrone's holy communion on sunday you were the topic of conversation on many occasions, the we man had a cracking day. Hope you were there with us in some way the messages have gone cold for some reason please try to be back intouch soon. Bernadette came down with Tamera and boyfriend Jim i think they all had a good few day's. Bernadette thinks you were somehow involved in getting them together if you were you'll be glad to know he's alright. Dad's really struggling he's like a lost man without you he needs some reasurance that you are ok and with the rest of the family help him if you can. I will keep going to the meeting's if you can give me a message for him i will pass it on. I hope you realise how much you are missed by all the family please be intouch soon. xxxxxxxxx

didnt forget ,course not your big ruby wedding , is that what that was all about . you always said you would like to go back to rothsay , and you were going to get dad too take you , dont know what 2 say,wish u were still here with us as my dad says the other nite , wish u were still here , still wish u were with us ,as i still miss u so much ,no more ph calls ,miss them so , anyway going down to vincents on sat for tyes communion on sunday which is fathers day ,my dad misses you so much ,as you know , well. happy 40th anniversary hope you liked the red roses , be there soon MISS U ALWAYS XXXX

hi nana its fathers day soon so im goning to try and get dad a really good card to cheer him up hes been so depressed since you left

why did it happen where are you now i just cannot find the words if only we could talk people say that time is a great healer it does not feel like it right now we all miss you terribly especially me love you always vince

Hi Ma, To let you know we did'nt forget you're 40th wedding anniversary took da to the meeting in hope of a message dont think he was impressed it was a first time speaker found it hard to communicate with anyone will try and get him to go back next week. We then went out for a curry and a few beers. In our thoughts for alway's. xxxxxxxx

hi mum i dont like leaving messages on the web site,because i no everyone and anyone can see them. But theres never one day that i dont think of you x x x....i thank you for a few weeks ago that meant the world to me, and i cant stop thinking about it,please give me more,...BUT as you no mum our family has never being one for saying i love you,or i need you,..or please hug me.,,.!!!!......,But sometimes leaving messagess on the site can bring us a bit more closer,,,,and say things that you probaly wouldent say to each other...and i think that can only be a good thing for all of us.......and ive got to thank bernadette for leaving that message,, AND I NO she is hurting just as much as every one but still finds the time to think of others,.... THANK YOU X X X. and love you..sis.... i havent seen much of ma da hes been down in the boro playing bolws with vinny as you no.... they r doing ok so far...................they will go all the way becuase they r oneills and dont fear anybody. good LUCK BHOYS. vist ma da if u can mum...............love you and god bless X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X

Sorry i have'nt been on for a while just got computer fixed. I also have'nt been to any meetings lately due to bowling with ma da as you probably know were doing well at the moment. Will be there on wednesday night will try and bring da hope you can make it we talk about you every day. Love and Miss you loads. xxxxxxxxxx